T-boned…OUCH

9 May

Oh wow, I totally didn’t realize that today was Wednesday…lol.

Oh Snap!

Most of those I know out in the blogosphere probably don’t know this yet, but…I was in a major car accident last week–like “Level 1 Trauma” major.  I didn’t see a truck when I was pulling onto the freeway and got t-boned.

To be honest, I’m lucky to even be alive–and hardly damaged (physically), at that.

I was knocked out cold.  I don’t even remember what happened after spotting the truck too late–not even the impact–just that when I woke up again I saw blue skies, a plane overhead and some arched lines I guess made up the cockpit of the helicopter I must have been flying in.  I remember I kept asking, “Where am I?”

One of the men onboard said somewhere in the background, “She’s repetitive…”

Next time I woke up I was in the hospital getting CAT scanned.  Besides apparently having suffered from a concussion…I was fine, they said.

My mom was already in a different hospital closer to home because of breathing problems, so it was just my dad there before extended family started trickling in.  I kept forgetting things they only just said to me… Then they kept trying to get me to stay in the hospital overnight (doc said I didn’t have to stay) and I kept refusing…until my dad said he’d bring me my laptop, haha.  (Works much like a pacifier does with a whiny baby, apparently…)

I actually never ended up using it, heh, funnily enough…

Holy Crap–That’s Horrible!

Yeah… Well, I’m fine now.  Mostly.  Though, it’s affected a lot of people–something I’m still coming to terms with, to be honest.  (The other driver wasn’t killed, thankfully, though I don’t know much else beyond that.)  Besides attending a class on Friday, I’ve got to show up at court…which won’t be fun.  But that’s life, I guess.

The thing that I keep getting caught up on, however (and I mean it is driving me nuts), is that I really don’t understand why I didn’t see that truck coming.  I remember I had to kind of look around the light pole–whose lighting system they changed, btw, so that it’s a flashing yellow arrow now instead of a solid green then yellow arrow followed by a red light…or whatever it was before.  (Is it scary I can’t even remember these details?)

Anyway, I haven’t been back on the road since last…Thursday?  Hmmm…and I’m not too excited about the prospect of returning.

In Short, I’m Frustrated…And My Brain’s A Bit Scrambled

At the end of the day, I feel like I ought to go back to that place–you know, the scene of the Accident–and just kind of meditate and try to investigate what happened…because it doesn’t even make sense in my head.

And that is a scary thing.

You Know What This Kinda Feels Like…

Has anyone seen a movie called Another Earth?  It’s a sci-fi flick about us discovering *gasp* “Another Earth“…but at a more basic level it’s about this girl named Rhoda who gets into a car accident in the middle of looking up in the sky and realizing, “Whoa, there’s this big planet that looks a lot like ours floating up there now…”  And then she has to deal with the consequences–aka face the only surviving victim of the accident in person.  (It’s also about second chances, but I’ll stop drawing parallels here…)

I’m not saying I got distracted by another planet in our sky or anything (’cause that would be c-raaaazy…), though the after effects of all of this feel just as surreal, in a way… What I’m saying is that, like Rhoda, I’m gonna have to face the victim; the accident was my fault.  And even though, unlike Rhoda, I didn’t kill anyone…this is still a pretty harrowing reality.

I don’t even know what the guy looks like.

Okay, Before You Go Thinking I Really Am Crazy…

The only reason I thought of this is because I was listening to some random soundtrack music, and “The First Time I Saw Jupiter” by Fall On Your Sword (also in this movie, btw) was playing in the background while I was editing all of this…

Kinda surreal, right?

*sighs* Yes, this is actually how my brain works, and apparently it’s only useful for self-therapy, at the moment…

In Other News…

I don’t have much else to blog about.  I keep trying to work on my story, but I haven’t really been able to focus on any one thing for more than like an hour or so since the Accident.  Not to mention I’m back on the job hunt again… (I haven’t lost my current one, though.  Just not getting enough hours…) Also, I’m waking up a lot earlier than usual, which is weird, though that might have to do with some other non-related crappy incident…

Yeah, not the greatest month for me thus far.  But the world keeps spinning, just like all the other planets in the cosmos… Things’ll turn around.

I’ll turn around.

So, how’s your May been going?

Better than mine, I hope!

(P.S.: wanna know the only funny thing about all of this?  My parents nicknamed me T-bone, right–and I got t-boned… Ha, ha, ha.  Mmm…)

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16 Responses to “T-boned…OUCH”

  1. T. S. Bazelli May 9, 2012 at 11:06 AM #

    Eeeh!!! I was just wondering how you were since you haven’t blogged in a while. That’s horrible. I’d be too terrified to drive for a long time. I hope the rest of the month shapes up better for you. Mine has been pretty uneventful, just busy.

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    • Tiyana May 9, 2012 at 12:18 PM #

      Thanks, Theresa. 🙂 I hope so, too.

      Busy is good! (Well, better than inert, anyway…heh.)

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  2. Anthony Lee Collins May 9, 2012 at 11:18 AM #

    Oh, wow. I am so glad you’re okay. (You may not be back to 100% yet, but everything considered it sounds like it could have been a lot worse). Can you take it a little easy on the job hunt until you get your feet back under you more?

    It does sound like it might be helpful to go back to the place at some point and see what you think.

    Anyway, take care of youself. Post regularly, so we know what’s up.

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    • Tiyana May 9, 2012 at 12:26 PM #

      You know, I’ve been searching on-and-off for a suitable full-time job for almost a year now, and I’m just to the point where I’m fed up with waiting around for something to become available. Just getting out there and creating a job is really starting to sound more and more appealing to me…

      So no, I probably won’t be taking it a little easy, lol. I’ve been so restless as it is…

      But I will definitely try to take (better) care of myself, heh, and keep you all posted. 🙂

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  3. Stephen A. Watkins May 9, 2012 at 12:19 PM #

    Wow. Sorry to hear about all that. I’m glad you’re okay, or at least mostly.

    Good luck recovering from this. Something this major, I know, can be pretty hard to bounce back from, but humans can be resilient creatures, too.

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  4. deshipley May 9, 2012 at 7:20 PM #

    !!!
    Oh, man, this sounds way too similar to what happened to my mom, once. Van flipped over, concussion, air-lifted to the hospital… the saddest part being, she was only two blocks from home. (So, stinking, close…)
    That was one of the scariest days of my life, and I wasn’t even in the car. I guess that gives you at least double, maybe triple, the scary points, eh? I’ve very glad to hear that you are more or less alright. Check this off your list of 10 Horrible Adventures You Must Have Before Number 11 Kills You, and *don’t do it again*.

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    • Tiyana May 9, 2012 at 8:43 PM #

      LoL – “10 Horrible Adventures You Must Have Before Number 11 Kills You”…

      Well, I think I’ve only done about two now, so…heh. I guess that’s a good thing…?

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  5. Vikki (The View Outside) May 10, 2012 at 12:28 PM #

    OMG! Thank heavens you’re ok! 🙂

    I’m not really having a great May either, so let’s hope it gets better from here on.

    Xx

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  6. J. P. Cabit May 16, 2012 at 8:27 AM #

    Wow Tiyana! I’ve been meaning to drop a note here but I keep getting busy.

    Glad to hear you’re okay! And that there isn’t another Earth floating up in the sky. (That’d be some competition for us being the only UFO destination in the galaxy, eh what?)

    Anyhow, hope you can recover (mentally that is) but in the meantime, WRITE about it!!!

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    • Tiyana May 16, 2012 at 10:45 AM #

      Thanks, JP! Writing about it does seem to help. 🙂

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  7. Jay Noel May 16, 2012 at 1:10 PM #

    Wondering what happened to you, as I didn’t see you on FB either. Thank God you’re relatively unhurt. So scary. I spend HOURS on the road and highways, and I’m super cautious. My very first car accident (when I was a 16) was similar in that I looked over, and saw the other car, yet still pulled out. Maybe I was in such a hurry, I don’t know. So weird. But that was a minor fender bender compared to yours.

    I’m relieved that you’re on the road to recovery.

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  8. dartangnonlassy June 3, 2012 at 7:14 PM #

    I hope you feel better, and I’m sorry you were in an accident! I have seen the movie “Another Earth”; it’s a fantastic movie that is completely not what I expected, on title alone. It’s a hypnotizing drama that explores multiple aspects of existence all at once, which is why I found it so intriguing. I have a movie blog myself due to my passion for movies; rare beauties like “Another Earth” are welcome company on my frequent business trips for Dish. Since I write movie reviews as a hobby, I subscribe to Blockbuster @Home to have access to all the movies I need, regardless if they are new or old. I need relaxing way to spend my time, when I’m not working. In my opinion if we are the only intelligent life that exists, “that would leave a lot of empty space”.

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    • Tiyana June 7, 2012 at 9:23 AM #

      Aw, thanks!

      Yeah, I was pleasantly surprised by Another Earth. I like how it focused on the human aspect of the story and not so much the science fiction elements. Definitely character-driven.

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